- ERICA ; JingFang ; Its The End Again .. T.T

Monday, November 23, 2009

ERICA @7:05 PM

Why must things always end it this way ?? What is happening ??
Why are you behaving like that ??

I called you so many times .. But you never once picked it up ..
i sent a lot of smses to you .. Neither did you reply me as well ..
What did i do wrong this time ?? What did i do ???????????

You really wanna end it this way ???? You really wanna
end it ???

[11:12AM ; 24~11~2009]
Stranded in the middle of no where ..

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

ERICA @12:33 PM

Looks like what my daddiie told me is true ..

No matter how hard you tried to help , nothing good will happen
to you . Only bad . I didn't believe in him at all in the first place .
But looks like i've got to believe in him ..

Managed to hold back my tears .. but i've got no idea how long i can
hold back .. things have already gone out of hand .. i just wanna take a
few days off .. i really wish i could .. i'm really stressed up .. i helped ..
i tried my best .. but no one is appreciating it .. daddiie wants me to be
strong on both the outside and inside .. including hard hearted as well ..
but i just can't do it .. mummiie says that since GOD made me this way ,
there's no other choice .. i didn't tell them what happened and i didn't tell
them and my friends how i felt .. i don't know how to put it .. i'm totally
trapped in the middle ..

I just wanna type everything out . I don't wanna cry . But i can feel that
i'm losing control over my tears .. trying so hard to tire myself out but its
also not working .. sleepless nights ; thats how i can summarise it ..

How weird ..

People blog about their happiness , their day , their probs , etc etc ...

But i'm not .. I have to watch sad clips or MVs so that i can actually cover
up the fact that i'm actually crying over the stuffs that happened ..

The erica whom is strong when something happens have died .. Now ,
when something happens , erica would just cry .. especially when it comes
to concern about those whom are close to both her and her heart .. Erica
is a weakling now ..

What daddiie said has came true .. what daddiie said is true ...

[4:53 AM ; 19~11~2009]
Erica Sng Chenghong has died ...

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

ERICA @11:13 PM

Erica hasn't been in a good mood since 2 days ago ..

When a shirt or a jacket gets very old , meaning ,
you have been using it fer quite a number of years
already , the colour will start fading .. Is that true ??

That happened to my blue jacket . And when i went
to arcade the day before , one of the mons (from jubeat)
asked me how long have i not wash my jacket and my skirt ..

FYI , that is the original colour of the skirt . And i
told you that my jacket is very old already that explains
why the colour is like that . You keep saying don't lie to me
don't lie to me .. Eh , thanks a lot luhhs hor . You're not that
kind of guy but in the end you appear that way . I don't even think
you have many friends .. Thanks a lot for making me hurt .

THANKS A LOT .

You know who you are . I don't need to
go to the extend of telling the jubeat
players about who you are . But , i AM
gonna say what you freaking hell did .
How not gentleman and how rude of a
guy you are . FROM NOW ON ,
I , ERICA SNG CHENGHONG , WILL
NOT GIVE YOU , JEFFREY AKA
*****MON , ANY RESPECT AT ALL .
YOU DON'T DESERVE IT AT ALL .

Thanks baobao for being there for me for the past two days .
If you weren't there for me , i think i would have cry till my
infection eye gets worst . x.x Te Quiero !

[2:36PM ; 01~10~2009]
Always loving Justin Tai Wei Lun no matter what happens ..

Thursday, July 30, 2009

ERICA @10:53 PM

Everything hasn't been fine or smooth for me ..
Had a very big quarrel with him and it involved slapping ..
Big slap was thrown across my face and at that moment ,
my heart once again broke .. Its as if it was being thrown
down from 100th floor .. Stinging pain in both my heart and
on my face ..

He has a new audii cpl .. And he has been behaving very
weirdly every since he audii cpl-ed this girl .. He kept a distance
away from me too .. Should i just give him up ? I don't want to ..

I'm really lost because of his reactions .. I'm very, very lost ..
Why must GOD play with me ? Why ... ... ??? I might appear
to be cheerful and everything .. But deep down , i'm not ..

There's a saying , "A good heart can never meet a good guy" ..
Is that true ? He said he changed .. But .. people are flooding
me with no no no no no no no .. Thus making me very lost ..
But at the very end , i choose to believe my heart , believing
he won't break my heart anymore ..

JustinBaobao ::

I believed in the change in you . But will you once again lie to
me ? And break my heart once more ?? Please don't do this to
me anymore .. I know i may sound desperate but , I really hope
you can see how much i care and love you and hoping , too , that
you won't leave me .. Will we patch ? I remembered you telling me
that we will patch back soon but must wait till you're ready to settle
down .. But this sudden appearance of this unknown girl is making
me feel so insecure .. She's better than me .. Way better .. Everything
is in your hands now le baobao .. Whether to choose her to be your future
half or vice versa , everything is up to your own decision .. Although i'm
hoping its me .. But its your future , you choose ..

JUSTIN TAI WEI LUN , I , ERICA SNG CHENGHONG , WILL
RESPECT YOUR DECISION IF YOU'RE CHOOSING HER . AND
I'LL WALK AWAY WITH MY TEARS .. ALWAYS REMEMBER ,
WHETHER WE'RE TOGETHER OR NOT , OUR DANCE WON'T
STOP . AND I'LL STILL BE LOVING YOU AS MUCH AS BEFORE ..

[2:09 PM ; 31~JULY~2009]
Always loving Justin Tai Wei Lun no matter what happens ..

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

ERICA @7:07 PM

This few days have been very hard for me to pass by .. I'm trying to endure all the hardships . And of course getting back by his side . He said there are too many things for him to clear before he settles down with me . Both me and him are fighting hard together .

A lot of stuffs i never share with anyone . Even him . I don't know how to break it to him . I don't even think i'll break to him .. Everyday there is a smile on my face . But there's a saying , "Putting a strong front" . And thats what i'm doing right now .

No one ever bother to ask anything . I don't really care cause i know everyone has their own probs .

A lot of people say that i'm really selfish . I keep telling them my probs and never giving them a chance to say or rather , share , what their probs was or is .

But i know clearly that all you guys problems i've been listening and helping . But did you guys ever realise that ?? And did you guys ever realise that some of you guys probs is really beyond my help ??? The answer is clear , NO .

But you guys always expect way too much from me till i don't even have time to settle my own .

Haiix ..

He told me not to care so much 'bout some of you guys de problems as its really beyond my help .
But i insisted on thinking till i'm really stressed up . And i end up quarreling with practically every single one of you . Including my parents .

Haiix ..

he said i'm too helpful and soft-hearted till the extend that people tend to crawl up to my head . but to me , deep down , i don't mind .

Just don't take me for granted guys .. Please .. I'm trying really hard to help you guys ..

Haiix .....

{10:17 AM ~ 22~JULY~2009}

Friday, July 10, 2009

ERICA @3:17 AM

Thanks for all your concern my friends ..
I need to let all of you guys know that the old
erica isn't here anymore ..

Hito :: You made my smile broadly . I thought
no one will ever rmb the little details or fun we have .
But you proved me wrong . Shut up and smoke !
Hahahas !! LOVE DIE HITO ! (:

By the way everyone , last month on the 24th ,
Him and i broke up already . Cried for a lot of days ,
didn't sleep well too .. I still rmb i didn't sleep for 3 consecutive
days .. Cried throughout that 3 days too . My mummy
was very shocked when i suddenly poured before running out
of my house that day .. I really am lost right now .. I told him
i'm really lost and am stranded once again in the middle of
no where ..

Haiix .. Everything is lost again .. I lost everything .. Everything ..

Waiting for you ... Always .. Loving you .. Always ...
[6:36PM ; 10~July~2009]

Monday, June 22, 2009

ERICA @10:12 PM

This few days aren't going well .. I don't know how
many more days i have to suffer .. Why must you
treat me this way ? I did asked you that .. But all you
said was another day another day another day ..
Seeing me suffer then you'll be happy is it ??

Fought so hard to get this relationship back .. But ..
Is this what i should get in return ?? I really love you alot ..
But why won't you face it ?? Every night before we
sleep , we would tell each other good night , i love you ..
This few days i've been saying that to you .. But all you replied
was good night .. Why aren't you saying all those already ??
Did i do something wrong ?? Did i make you angry again ??
What exactly did i do ??? Why are you treating me this way ??
You even told me not to sms or call you .. Why my dear .. Why ....
I'm in pain .. pain that i can't endure .. Why aren't you feeling
anything ?? Have you lost feelings for me already ?? Have you ??

Laogong , what did i do ?? Why are you doing this to me ??
You know i really love you alot but why are you doing all this ?
You told me to give you a break .. I asked you whether you want a
cool down period is it ? You replied saying that it might not help ..
I asked you then is a clean break up enough for you ? You replied
saying you don't know .. What are you trying to tell me ?? What
do you want ?? What are you thinking ??? Laogong .. I really need
you to tell me whats going on .. I don't think i can take it any longer ..
You are my world .. My everything .. I can't afford to lose you again ..
Laogong ... ILOVEYOU !!

Crying bitterly every single day .. Is your love for me changing ??
[1:35pm ; 23~06~2009 ; Tuesday]